It happens to me sometimes. Just out of nowhere something takes place that leaves me touched. It could be a movie scene, someone I spoke to, someone I saw...one of life's tiny little gifts! Some of these moments fill me with a sense of peace! (Hence the picture, one of the moments when I was truly calm!)
A few days ago, I went to GK with Aruna. I saw this little kid who was asking for money. I dont give them money. I wanted to buy the boy a packet of chips. I did so. Went after him and gave it to him. I just left without looking at him. He came back and smiled at me in a way that no one has ever smiled at me. I mean that. That was the most genuine smile I have ever seen.
Funnily, I thought I had become really practical and I knew how to keep myself detached when I wanted to. A few days ago, a girl told me about how she bravely fought a bunch of bastards all by herself and how her cowardly "special friend" refused to get in touch with her after that. I was consumed with pride for being this girl's friend and I found myself crying at the thought that she had to bear all of it alone and that she had wasted her feelings on an asshole. Honestly, I surprised myself because I did not think I was capable of such emotion anymore.
I wrote a mail to Akshay and Rash, two of my close friends abt missing them a little. Akshay who has off-late been rather reticent about anything remotely mush, wrote saying "You better miss me more than a little buddy!" And like a soppy fool, I got teary eyed. :P
There was this friend called Cheeru whom i got to know through someone. We spoke a few times over the phone, not enough to develop a friendship. With time, and due to circumstances, we lost touch. I got to know of his marriage and I left him a message on Orkut to which he replied. That was my last communication with him, exactly two years ago. Suddenly, yesterday, he pinged me and we spoke as if the past two years had never been there. He is not even a friend, or so I thought, and he very sweetly asked me to come to Jodhpur, his hometown, so that his wife and he could play perfect hosts. Its a silly thing, but this courteous gesture reaffirmed my faith in genuine and true feelings. I had no idea that an instant messenger conversation could lift my heart in such a way.
We were going to attend a wedding...there was an old kishore kumar song that started playing on the radio....and papa who by the way is not blessed with the most melodious voice around...started singing...:P I think that was one of the most special moments of my life!
I think we spend so much time finding meaning in things that don't exist or should not matter that we forget to let seemingly insignificant things affect us in a great and beautiful way!
